First of all I want you to know that you have been the making of me. You’ve given my life meaning, purpose and you have given me a strength like no other.
If you become Mama’s yourselves one day you will understand that strength.
In my posts I make no secret of the fact that I find it hard, parenting… parenting you two. I use the terminology that is common today- I lose my shit… I have parenting fails… I swear.
But this is never a reflection of who you two are. This is a reflection of our lack of support and the lack of help that I receive. It is also a completely natural feeling for parents.
You two are so hard to parent because you have such strong personalities. You fight against every boundary I set. You question me and challenge the things I say. You explore your surroundings, you’re inquisitive and you’re minds are like sponges soaking up information. You know your own minds and rarely conform.
And whilst I often say you wear me out, that I’m tired and drained, that you take all my energy, I never complain about who you are.
This is because you are everything I ever hoped you would be and whilst you are extremely hard to parent now, whilst you’re small, you are going to be amazingly strong, smart women.
Whilst you are incredibly hard to parent now, I NEVER want to change who you are and your personalities because you are everything I ever hoped you would be.
I shout, I lose my shit and sometimes I just want you to go to bed because I’m trying so hard to show you the way, to fight you so I can set those boundaries that you have to learn whilst supporting your strength and your individuality. I’m trying my hardest to answer all your questions whilst juggling everything else and remembering everything I have to do.
I want you to always know that whilst I post about the hardships of my parenting journey, those hardships are only because of the way I’M raising you. They are only because I am encouraging you to challenge the world and to not conform. To not be led by others but to lead the way yourself.
They are also because I am your main role model. And I try to be all of those things too, but you both outshine me on every level and that is exactly what I’m proud of.
Parenting you two will never be easy, but it will always be a million times over worth it.